After months of searching (years in total really) I’ve finally figured out my problem with finding my passion. If you don’t know me then I’ll just say that I’ve struggled with finding myself for a long time now. I’ve taken a bunch of different personality and career matching tests with pretty much the same kind of results. I’m Introverted until I get to know you better. I am a good problem solver and leader (with compatible types as my subordinates); though I will never ‘choose’ to be a leader. It’s usually chosen for me by management. I enjoy challenges deep thought and tend to stay extremely focused on the challenge until it is complete.
But that’s where the results stop. What the tests don’t go into is the fact that once the challenge is complete and I feel that I’ve learned a lot about the given subject I get bored with it and want to move on. Looking at my job history I can see a pattern. I typically work really hard on some tough problems at most places before I start to get bored with it. And I mean really bored; like physically ill bored (and depressed afterward). I’ve been living my professional life for the past ten years just thinking that something was wrong with the jobs I was working; or even worse something was wrong with ME.
While watching a bunch of TED videos on Youtube.com I started writing a list of the things that I want to do; my passions if you will. Most speakers kept trying to encourage listeners to find THAT THING that would make them jump out of bed in the morning. I looked at my list and found that not a single one made me feel that way. I’m just not that passionate about anything. “Great!” I though. Not only do I not like what I do, but there is nothing that I’d like to make a new profession either. So what does a geek do when faced with a problem like this?
I googled. I searched “I have no passions…” in Google and came up with surprisingly less results than I thought that it would. One site stuck out in the results and I finally decided to follow one of the links: http://puttylike.com/terminology/
It was there that I discovered what I truly am. I am a Multipotentialite; aka Slasher; aka Scanner; aka Polymath. Basically…
A modern day Renaissance Man. I have multiple things that I want to learn about, but not necessarily become a master in any of them. I don’t want to devote my life to becoming a specialist in something; I want to devote my life to learning about anything that interests me.
Emilie Wapnick is the creator of Puttylike and has brought together a community of non-specialists as well as written a ton of useful information. After reading a good bit of the site I decided to change my thought process. I tossed my list of ‘passions’ and started a list of what I’d like to learn more about:
– Computer Programming
– Linux Operating System
– Wood Furniture Making
– Landscape Engineering
– Creative Writing
– Guitar (Learn to Play)
– Automotive Maintenance & Upgrading
– Plant & Tree Identification (I was never a boy scout)
– Physical Fitness (Explosive Power Specifically)
– Healthy Cooking (and not so healthy baking)
– Home Alcohol Production (Still want to make the drink of my ancestors; mead)
– Graphic Design
I fully expect this list to continue to grow, but for now this will do. The next step is to train myself that (job growth + job skills != happiness). The real equation I need to solve is (x + x.skill obtained == happiness). If you don’t algebra just know that ‘x’ represents the items in the list above.